no haikus ever

I'm sitting in my car in my driveway

Because I think that when I get out of my car and go into my house

There will be more day happening

And I am not mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually

(all four, I remembered all four!)

Prepared for more day to happen right now

The longer I sit in my car in my driveway

The more the chances increase

That my daughter comes to the window and notices me there

And texts and asks me why I am doing what I am doing

And saying "I am tired, I am trying to have a moment to not exist"

Is a difficult thing to say to anyone

least of all a legal dependant

Or that my landlord who lives below me

And is not home right now

Pulls into the driveway next to me

And wants to talk about something that is a thing

And I am no-thing-een

And any words to a human being right now will break the spell

What I would like to do most of all is nothing

But I'm sorta damned if I do, et ceterra

And I have to pee

Rats!